I feel so restless . It feels like I am looking for a piece of a jigsaw puzzle ( in a dark forest ) which will finally bring me eternal peace .
Have been poking every corner of my mind.
The problem is first I will have to figure out the puzzle to find any missing piece .
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I love these two sets of snaps . They were taken 5 or 6 years apart at the same place. Cherai Beach . There are lot of differences .The least being my photography skills . Yet , they are both the same .
That is Pearl , three years old , making sand castle , her father protecting her castle from the front .
This is Pearl again , eight years old , trying to fly her kite . It wouldn’t lift off whatever they do . It reminded me of the cartoon in which Tom tries to fly and left me smiling thinking they will both give up soon .
In the end they did find a way out . Nothing is a problem when you have a doting father .
So , today also happens to be the ‘Dyscalculia Day ‘ . Well , if ‘dyscalculics’ remember what day it is .
I came to know about dyscalculia from Tiff of Free play life . It was an instant recognition . The feeling of belonging. Of finding a place/group where you truly belong . At last .
Ever since then , along with all the online reading and researches I have done about it I have also tried to spread the word . But the ultimate truth is people do not care . Of course they have more pressing problems.
Whether the human race cares about dyscalculia or not knowing about this condition has helped me in more ways than I can fathom. It pushed me to plan and organise meticulously . Earlier I did not care much about sorting out papers or keeping them in order . Because I always thought it is the same for every other person. I thought misplacing them or forgetting them regularly was just continuous accidents that can happen to any one .
But now I take it as a task . I keep separate folders and files . Colour coded. With a little effort my papers and slips and cards and bills go into the correct folders. Even when I get disorganised I do not feel helpless as I used to. I just take the time to put them in order.
I keep email back ups. Scan and back up required documents . Set enough alarms and reminders. Has a digital clock in my living room .
I shop only in supermarkets where I do not have to worry about change and weight and calculations. With small changes I have stopped calculating as I will confuse the person further. But , there are people who try to trick you smartly when they see the blank look on your face . So if I feel something is fishy I take the time and patience to check it through . Serves them right 😛 With major transactions I do some home work and get every thing correct and ready .
And most of all , I do not take up work from others which I am sure I will mess up. Even when it happens I just pat on my shoulder and move on. In short life is much more easier when you know you are dyscalculic than when you doesn’t have a clue what is going on and why you are forgetting and making a fool of yourself.
With the knowledge about this problem I was able to overcome my phobia towards cash and banks. Now I do not panic when I have to deal with numbers . Calculator is my constant companion . I may stumble in between but I know I will find my way out . I was able to draw up a routine which is efficient and flexible enough to give me space . And now I do not make a fuss about my problems . Instead I figure out ways to deal with it . Each and every one of them. It took 3-4 years , but now I can say ‘Yes , It is oK . I can deal with this ‘.
Whenever I speak to someone about the difficulties I have as a dyscalculic they tell me, ” It is just because you are not concentrating enough . It is the same for every one . You should pay more attention .” (That is the most frustrating part .) But I think for a dyscalculic it not about paying attention or concentrating more . It is about ‘not panicking’ and ‘finding ways’ with which he/she can cope better .
And that is why awareness is important . Common man may be amused to know about this condition . But to a dyscalculic it is an answer to all the problems they have been facing ever since they can remember . It is the answer to that nagging question ‘ why I am different ‘ .
If you are interested you can find more about dyscalculia here : Check for symptoms of Dyscalculia here.
Spread the word . It will help a dyscalculic person to get a grip on his/ her life. And feel happy about himself/herself.
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I sort of stepped out of blogging when I felt I could no more take the pressure of preforming for an audience . You know , I was not sure if I am in the correct path in parenting . And I was not sure if I will rise up to the standards expected from a veteran blogger .
I have been thinking about it for a while . I think I am ready to take the next leap. I thought a lot about a new blog . Like a next season for Krishnaleela. But couldn’t find anything better than this . Even now I feel I belong here. And as I have endorsed many times before it just feels great to be acknowledged as a blogger .
Many things changed over the year . We shifted to an apartment .
The last year was more or less about settling in . Which also means now I have to go to office instead of working lazily and blogging away from my office cum residence . It also means now I have no view of any plants or birds or butterflies hovering in my garden . Other than that life in a flat is ok.
I also disowned many things including my pet dog , aquarium and my favourite pots of plants. So, for now other than the kids and the husband and a mobile which needs to be charged now and then I do not have anything that needs to be taken care of regularly . From being the hoarder I have been now I have changed into a purger who do not keep anything she do not need. Definitely nothing that needs my time and care . I learned to say ‘ No’ to anything I do not want to do or keep. Though people frown upon me ( being the nut case I am ) this has opened up a whole lot of venues where I can actually do things I want and have left me with a feeling of lightheartedness. Nothing -to- fret over- whatsoever-like- feeling .
Kids now engage themselves . Pearl is always busy scribbling and playing with her dolls . It amazes me how easily she makes bubble solution . Even though it makes the floor a bit messy and the hand- wash vanishes in no time I am tempted to ask her the secret formula . I could never do it as a child or adult .
Ruby now study by himself with my guidance . Anyway we are about to put it in test with the exams just round the corner .
Now he pores over Percy Jackson series and Wimpy kid . Pearl is catching up fast with Germione Stilton and Amar chitra Katha. Pearl has become a huge fan of Doremon and Ruby’s new craze is ‘Slug Terra ‘ .
And a long vacation to look forward to.
Today ‘Krishnaleela’ is 3 years old. I started blogging 3 years before when Pearl started going to school.
Kids have grown up and my blog has been left alone for a while. When I started blogging I did not have any idea what a blog means . I did not know where it will take me either . But to my great surprise I got a handful of great friends . And it was one of the best educational program I have ever had . Interacting with people all around the world feels great. Then ‘facebook ‘ happened.
I love this quote : “Winning is not always about being first ‘.
I believe we compete with ourselves . If I have improved when compared to my previous scores regarding anything , then I have succeeded. In that way, this blog has been a great success. I cannot compare the changes it has brought with any other experience in my life .
I can only “Thank you’ for all the support and encouragement you all have given me. Thank you for all the acknowledgments, comments and appreciations . ( I would like to say criticism too, but I have hardly received any 😛 ) . Your sweet words and comments are written in gold in my heart and will be there forever.
ee vishuvinu share cheyyan photos illa
ayavirakkan orma kurippukalum illa
mashi thandu kondu maaychu thelinja slate pole
puthu varsham enne vilikkunnu
athil ennikku ezhuthicherkkuvaanullathu
jalarekhakal aakathirikkatte enna prarthana maathram
njaan snehikkunna ellavarkkum
enne snehikkunna ellavarkkum
ente hridayam niranja vishu aashamsakal