The urge to count with my fingers even in front of others. It is irresistible . But Otherwise I will simply not be able to complete the sum. I like to go to super markets mostly because they will tell you the exact balance and they will give you an exact bill. They wont ask you to check it once again. And I can be sure if they billed something I forgot to take.
If you see me listening to some body who tells me about time or schedules or their strategies or projected amounts or bills or banking , you may think I am listening keenly or doing the calculations in my mind . But no, I am just staring into blankness. All of it does not mean any thing to me. I have given up listening to them a long time ago. ( My husband says it is the same for him when he goes to a doctor. Is there some condition like that as well ? I wonder ! )
If my friends remember correctly I have an Id card with birth date recorded as 1997 instead of 1977. Mahesh , Are you reading this ? Yes, I am now 13 years old or is it 12 ? Any way, finally I am into my teens!
Now I have a watch which does not even have numbers. I just fell in love the shape of the dial and strap and couldn’t talk myself out of it. But now my times are so vague . Somewhere around something. And looking at the watch dial I feel like looking into a placid pond. It doesn’t mean anything. It is okey with me because I don’t care so much about time. I just want to know how much more time is left from the time limit I have . ( 5 or 10 minutes to reach some where .. like that .) It need not be precise and I don’t care.
But I hate it when people ask me time . I am so embarrassed. I have to multiply the long hand number with 5 and find the product and then find the short hand number . And then again check the long hand and the again check the multiplication and ( getting mad ???? )then again relate it to short hand and think if the multiplication has gone wrong , think if what I think is correct and then decide on some thing . ( 15, 30 and 45 is easy but even then I have to mulitply )
I have set my mobile banner in such a way that I can see time, date and day in letters . Not picture screen . And also calender. It is a blessing that we can carry it around.
I have clocks in every room , in every single position. because I will never know what time of day it is. I have very poor time sesnse. I will get ready early and wait for the correct time . And then I get messed up again in the last minute and reach late. How people really sense time ? I don’t know.
I am very poor with days and dates. Now I am so fed up with up my inability to remember I have stopped taking in data. I just ask the relevant people to remind me and tell them not to expect me to remember it no matter however important it is . Yes I know my birth date. Year ? I have some how mugged it up. But if somebody ask my age I am cornered. Earlier I used to count them . But I don’t that will apply now. Now every year I by heart my age. Wedding Anniversary ..tenth or eleventh ? ( my sister has got a head for numbers and dates and she makes it a point to call me before important dates ) My kid’s birth dates …I will count and subtract and do whatever possible.
Few days back only I told my sister I cannot understand the layout and I have given up. Instead I drew every single page of the web site, with drop downs , in the order , how I want it to be and handed it over to the professional. I think the persevering nature covers the problem to some extend and doesn’t let anybody find out how dreadful it is to be a dyscalculic.